howdy.. yeah i kn...

howdy.. yeah i know i havent posted in awhile.. A) my grandfather died on Saturday B)my computer fucking broke. C)whenever i try to update, like now, my brother is constantly over my shoulder, and reading, and thus, knows too much. in any event, i was at the funeral today, and it was pretty sad. my mom like, broke down, and so did my grandma. she freaked out when they started lowering his body down. it was pandemonium. when i was at ericas house once, JT asked her what she would do if he died, and if she would cry or not. she said she didnt know how she would react, and i guess it put him off a little bit. i didnt cry when my grandfather died. its not like, a given thing that happens to everyone..ive been at my aunts house for the majority of the day (which is where i am now.. *confetti*) and people that i dont know have been coming up to me and talking to me like im some kind of "brave little girl", etc etc. theyre like "oh sweetie, if you want to cry, im here" and i look at them like "what the hell is your deal?" the truth, he had cancer and was in alot of pain. hes not in pain anymore, and im happy for him. he died in his sleep, which is the way to go.